So, my results came a few days back, and I am proud to say that I survived four years of engineering. I'm now an official Chemical Engineering graduate. Pheww.... Still job hunting as I believe I the best is yet to come. We are going off to my dad's place where he works tomorrow and as it is holiday here in Malaysia starting next week for Eid Celebration and it is time for real Malaysian celebration. We are planning to chill out at Cameron Highlands for the weekend too so you may expect some pictures next week on Glipho if I am not too lazy to upload them here. As for myself, I thought of forking out some money from the part time business I am doing to give myself a treat for successfully surviving the long 19 years of education with something that I have always wanted to get: A Shade ;) Let me know what to look out for if you have an idea for my shopping for shade ;)
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Today, while I was reading something, I sort of interviewed myself as a weird random question popped out of my head. Why do I write? And I instantly had an answer to this question my mind erupted out of curiosity. I write because it is not a crime to kill someone on print. I write mostly about social issues and I just had to pen my thoughts down when something is troubling from within and when my mind forces its thoughts out of my head through words onto my computer screen. It's almost like a need of mine that I have to satisfy when I find the urge and inspirations to write. I feel that there are a lot of things that are just not right around us and I think that it is not worth of a small discussion between a group of colleagues or within family members. We do the talking and forget about the urgency or seriousness of the issue. There are also moments when I just feel like strangling someone or a group of people from our society to death which I obviously can't afford to do. So I resort to writing and letting the rage out on my blog. For me, emotions fuel the drive within me to write and when I am in the right frame of mind to write, words come easy and flows well to make a complete article.
One of the reasons why I feel everyone should write is because words speak louder than us. I feel the messages we have in our writing reaches wider group of readers. Writing is powerful and it spreads my thoughts all around the WORLD. On another hand, it also gives me a pleasure knowing that my messages reach the 'intended' people and they can't do about it much. Every time I get a negative comment suggesting disapproval about something I write, I know that it has affected someone and probably it is them who I am referring to on my post which has prompted them to react such way. It is true that if you have never earned at least one enemy in your whole life time, you have not been doing something right. Last but not least, I also believe that your writing lives longer than you. Shakespeare is still living today because of his majestic writing.
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? (Sonnet 18)
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate. Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer's lease hath all too short a date. Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines, And often is his gold complexion dimmed; And every fair from fair sometime declines, By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed; But thy eternal summer shall not fade, Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st, Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade, When in eternal lines to Time thou grow'st. So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
It gives me goosebumps thinking how true this is and how he preservered his love through writing!!!
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I'll soon be out of campus and I'm in the midst of looking for a job already. I have hundreds of things on my mind and I feel there is an urge to make up my mind on what I want to see myself as by the time I touch 30! I'm 9 months away to celebrate silver jubilee. Right now, I'm already feeling bad wasting of my time not having thought about this earlier.
So, as I age I feel the necessity to have a long time aim for my life:
Complete Further Education
I have swayed from wanting to enrol in one field of studies to another in a great extent. From medicine to engineering, something I have never considered doing, not even in my wildest dream! Engineering was a big NO for me. But as I stood at the verge of deciding what to do next, having failed in securing a scholarship for medicine (for some very irritable reason), I wanted take up the challenge of doing what I thought I could never like doing. I have always liked learning new stuff so I don't see a reason why I couldn't do engineering. I took up Chemical Engineering and I'm absolutely loving the twist I made in life. Now, as I'm 2 months away from completing my Bachelor's Degree, I face another crossroad of life. What to do next?
Some may choose to further their studies right away, but I want to get into the real world, the working life and see what suits me the most. I would want to have a clear picture of my career. After which I might want to decide which field of studies to choose to further my studies. I have a strong will to venture into Management Studies, again something that differs from what I'm doing. And I want this to be done by the age of 30.
2. Have Good Source of Incomes
I regret not thinking about freelancing earlier but I guess it's never late to start on it! I have always questioned myself what if I work for someone and lose the job, what do I do to support myself and my family, and how to cope with the cost of living. The second thing I want to ensure for the future is to have a second option of source of income in addition to the primary job! I would want to venture into freelancing and generate some income so that I always have an option that would support me if I were to fall from my career ladder!
When I think of having a career, I'm also considering the fact that I may have to alter my job according to the needs of the family I would make in future. Parents are expected to spend time with their children to ensure they mould their offsprings into people with values ingrained in their soul and mind. To make these a reality, men and women should tailor their working hours according to the need to spend time with family. On the other hand, women need to have a decent amount of income to be able to manage the high living expenses. I have got a lot of thinking to do now :)
3. Settling Down
Settling down in three sense:
- By the time I'm 30, I would want to make up my mind on which part on earth (or at least country) to settle down. I hate highly urbanised areas as they are just another source of additional stress!
- I would also want to ensure that I have settled my study loan by then which I now feel pretty possible. I want to be debt free so that I could think of affording a car at least by then.
- A house is a great investment and regardless of whether I need a house to stay or not (women have husband's house to stay as another option), I feel having a house is a long time benefit!
Sometimes stabs you so bad,
Stomps on your heart so hard,
And expects you to pretend,
Like it has never hurt you.
I am grateful,
For I know my dark past,
Should not take a toll on me,
I know my hardship shouldn't,
Change me to someone I'm not,
But pain cautions me too much,
It hardens and numbs my soul,
So that life doesn't hurt me anyway,
I was told that,
I'm sweet and kind and caring,
I make a wish tonight,
So that life doesn't steal,
My sweetness away.